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I really feel a kind of bad right now. Yesterday finally my screenig took place and i got a diagnosis.
ulcerative colitis
This is a terrible chronic disease and I wonder if my other chronic diseases hadn't been enough. Without the ulcerative colitis I need to stay at home most of the week already and couldn't do much. Now it is even worse. Why me? What's wrong with me and my life?
And because it is still not enough, it isn't the usually mild type of ulcerative colitis. No. It had to be the type that affects the whole colon. Why me??
I was so sure that the doctors can help me but now it seems like I will always have months of pain and feeling bad and tired. I'm so frustrated.
Bipolar Disorder (a type that is not treatable with usual meds), Morbus Hashimoto, Morbus Unna, chronic knee inflammation, chronic finger and hand inflammation, reflux disease, chronic somachache where no reason was found.... and now ulcerative colitis. What the hell have I done wrong in my last life?
I wanted to reach so many goals and I set them down every year and now I still can't reach those goals. I feel like my whole life is over and I don't understand why it was not enough yet. Why me?
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